A few months ago I found myself really drawn to crystals. This had been a part of my exploration when I was young but I had moved on from it and thought it felt juvenile and hokey to me. “Only new age yuppies use crystals” I thought….
After more than a month of pondering, reading, window shopping and continuously telling myself I would “just get over it” I finally went to a shop on the far side of town to get me some rocks….
I brought them back to work (it was a lunch hour) and sat with the stones.
What had I just done?
How could I be so silly?
We didn’t have money for this, there are bills to pay and I am throwing money at bits of rock!? DAMMIT Karen!
I held the weighted stones in my hand and reflected on my purchase. It really wasn’t much and I had been eyeing them for a while. I decided to meditate with the stones in my hand and just embrace that I had done this and, weather it was a good purchase or an impulse buy I was now the owner of a big ol’ piece of Clear Quartz, a small chunk of Bercciated Jasper, and a bit of Smokey Quartz, because I just love black. As I rolled the rocks around in my hand the embarrassment lifted. I thought about the fact that it was kind of nice to feel the smooth and sharp edges, it really kept my focus and helped my mind form wandering.
Over the next few weeks as I would finish up my lunch hour yoga I would grab for my crystals and roll them in my palms. It felt good, I was connecting regularly to my spirituality and these tools were helping me get there. It can be so easy between an office environment and a busy home life to forget about taking time for your mental and spiritual well being. But these crystals helped me get there. No shame.
The moral of my little post here is that you shouldn’t be too hard on yourself. Of course you never want to put your base needs at risk by over indulging in any one pillar of your life but if something resonates with you and you can do it responsibly, don’t feel like you should deny yourself based on past or others perceptions. As with all things in life, you will have need for different tools at difference times. Tools may come and go but the time you put into you and the connection you feel in those moments is everlasting.
Blessed be.
-Karen